My Lonely Birthday 2011

24th August 2011

My 20 years old birthday

A lonely birthday..

No celebration,
Just get a lot of  wishes from facebook friends.

Family,

means no one is left behind.

I have no a complete family,

what a sadness..

He don't even know 

how many years old i am,

he just know 22th Aug is Shen Zhuo's birthday,

and invite me to his birthday party..

Then,

how about me?

Fine..

I already get ready for this situation

and get used to it.

If i have next life,

i want a complete family,

full with family's love,

care and warms.

Preparation to enter UPSI (together with my grandma):

 body check

1. .x-ray

i get my first x-ray~

amazing~

my clear lungs,heart,ribs~

at the beginning,

im a bit scare of x-ray.

when i think that the rays will kill my cells,

im so scared..

but finally,

im just have to take off my bra,

change the cloth,

tie up my hair,

positon my body with a metal plate in front under the guidences.

When a button is presssed,

DONE~

so fast, so easy..

when i change cloth in a small room,

suddenly an uncle rushed inside.

Luckily i hide behind the small door,

he din see my body without bra.. --..

2. urine test

Ee...

its a bit shame because the worker is a man..

well,

just collect my urine in a bottle at the toilet,

put the sample at a small 'window' there,

and wait for him

(but i din listen to him properly n leave it as i put the sample there..) 

then he asked me to open then cover of the bottle,

he put a paper inside the sample,

and i clean the bottle.

that's it..

3. i thought its blood test,so scared..

but luckily..

i go to Room 11,

having my vision test,including rabun warna.

they also check my height,weight,blood pressure and heartbeat.

but the nurse is a bit careless..

she forgot to test rabun warna for me..

4. see doctor

this part spend most of the time as i have to wait for the doctor

the parts before runs so fast

but that is a nice doctor~ ^^

she sign everything for me.

COMPLETE~~

it only cost $30 at goverment clinic

thanks the uncles for the guidences,

and the worker at counter to teach me what to do there.

Thanks you all

p/s: no need to empty your stomach before these test.

dun stupid like me..

So many things pop-up in my mind recently..

Family..

Friends..

Death..

Loss..

What i should do when i loss my grandmother 1 day,

just like my mommy??

No...

So i MUST do a lot of things for you now

before its too late,

do everything that i will do for mommy.

I will do whatever my mommy should do

n wish to do for you,

if she is still alive.

That is my biggest wish

How i can stop from lossing my friends

one by one

after graduation?

after evryone enter different universities

at different corners of the earth?

Cann't..

Where i can start to get enough of family's love?

sometimes i feel that i am a poor girl,

mother passed away

father almost ignored me

i am just like anak piatu..

i did everything independently

and he just care about his new girlfriend and shen zhuo..

so,

at the end,

i even cannot call him 'dad'..

because i haven't say this word for years..

its not as easy as the drama on TV

well,

what can i say is

You miss out my life

You miss out the time when i need you most

when i firstly saman by the police

when i firstly go to the court

when i firstly take motor licence

You miss out my every 'first'

Its too late now..

Mommy

If you are still alive,

you can feel proud of your daughter,

see her enter university,

feel how she treat you well.

That is what you wish for long time,isn't it?

If you are still alive,

your daughter will have a complete family,

your daughter can get enough love..

We can discuss gossip together.

we can shopping together,

we can share evrything

EVERYTHING!

But all is just 'If '

i had dream last time,

that you still alive,

live with us..

How good if that is real..

How good if grandma won't leave me..

Big day!

Big day!

BIG BIG day!!!

Im being offered psychology course

at UPSI,

Tanjung Malim,Perak today!

which is my 3rd choice!

Although i prefer UKM as it located at KL,

BUT

UPSI is only 1 hour far away from KL!

Some more,

im going there togather with Jane and Pei Hua,

which get education course,

and Jin Feng which is same course with me!

YAHOO!!

Not everyone is as lucky as me..

Vivian : Multimedia Technology at UMS

Pei Yan :  Maths and Graphic at UMS
Shekinah : perladangan or pertenakan at Kelantan
Jie Ning : Sains Persekitaran at UKM
Kwong Hui: reject USM Kelantan of Bio Process,finally get Medic at Sabah

Sook Yun: Marine Science but she is heading to AIMST for Biotechnology
Jian yik: din get offer but going to NILAI for Biotechnology

then Kok Siong..

he reject USM Kelantan for pertuturan,

but now,

he get Computer Technology at Sarawak..

Pening...

Well,good luck and congatulation to everyone!

Hopefully you all have bright future!

Psychology UPSI,

I'm coming~

thanks The Secret for the ways of creating our own ways,

mastering our own life!

and thanks everyone who is always supporting me
my family,my friends..

i LOVE u all~

and i will miss you all~

^^

My 'Ghost' Brother

At 1a.m...

In front of the toilet..

At the dark kitchen..

HE

Walking straightly..

Without expression..

Without noises..

Like floating on the air..

MOVE THROUGH IN FRONT OF ME!!!!

OH MY GOD!!!!!

GHOST!!!!!!!!!!

I SCREAM!!!!

Eeii??

Why the ghost also jumped scarely??

'Yor~ Ur scream scare me la!'

- -'' its my brother..

Luckily im nt so 'lucky' 

(speechless)..

3 more days, 15th of July 2011 (Friday) will be a BIG day!!

STPM graduates can know which is the goverment university they can enter!

Well,hopefully i can get UKM!!

No!!

I BELIEVE I CAN GET!!

UKM Psychology!!

Im coming!!!

KL,

Im coming!!!

Short meet at Gurney Plaza

Take Jadam Express Bus from Kulim to Butterworth for 45 minutes,

then cross the Penang sea by ferry

and take Rapid Bus 103 to Gurney Plaza for about 30 minutes,

 togather with my grandma..

Travel a long way and reach there finally to meet Shirley, Sok Ling and Eric Kok Siong..

Have a great lunch with my grandma at 龙的传人for四川酸辣拉面

After meet at McDonald,Eric strongly invite us to his shop--Chicago Rib House

Well,thanks a lot to him for his great desserts~

My grandma was so happy~

thanks a lot~

and take care ya~ hopefully we can gather again soon

or enter the same university~ ^^